My apologies to readers. I had this article ready to go at the beginning of June. I send one article at a time to the editors, even though I may have the next five ready to go. The end of June came and passed, and I completely forgot about this article until I found it five minutes ago, waiting to be found in my files. It’s a little late, but full of life lessons that can apply in July or any other month, as well.
I’m a horrible friend. I feel so bad for what I did to one of my closest friends, someone I’ve known for over a decade. I feel lower than low. But if I tell her what I did, I risk losing the friendship. I know she’ll be angry. I can handle anger. But I don’t want to lose her.
I’m trying to figure out how to describe myself; but every time I do, it sounds conceited. Let’s put it this way: If I were a goy and went to public school, I’d be captain of the cheerleading squad.
I’m feeling down on myself. The last three guys I went out with were so off the mark; it was like they were from a different planet. But, of course, each shadchan had great things to say about each of them, and each reference... I guess these shadchanim don’t know me or what I need.
I’ve been engaged for a couple of months. The wedding will be after Sukkos. I’m telling you this straight off the bat so you know exactly where I am in my relationship; it may help you understand and provide an informed response.