The birth of a new year is a time of reflection and resolution, when hope and inspiration fill the air. We dream about what this upcoming year holds in store for us, how we can make the rest of our lives the best of our lives. We all have ideas, ambitions, and aspirations that we yearn to bring to fruition, and the new year gives us “permission” to revisit these goals and breathe new life into them. For a brief moment, everything is crystal clear; we see our purpose and our path with vivid clarity. However, there is an underlying frustration that accompanies this time period, as well. If we reflect honestly, we often realize that our new year’s resolutions are awfully similar to those of last year, and the year before, and the year before…
We have brief moments of inspiration, but they soon fade into oblivion, only to be resuscitated for a few more days the next year in the hopes that somehow this year might be different. However, there is another option, a way to actually make this year different. By truly understanding this time of year and fully tapping into powerful themes, we can turn what was previously fleeting inspiration into lasting, eternal change.
The Deeper Themes of T’shuvah
Elul and Rosh HaShanah center around the concept of t’shuvah, and Parshas Nitzavim is clearly linked to this theme, as well. The p’sukim in Nitzavim discuss the theme of t’shuvah, the importance of choosing life – choosing what is right – and connecting ourselves back to Hashem. As Parshas Nitzavim is connected to the transition from Elul into Rosh HaShanah, let us delve into the idea of t’shuvah.
T’shuvah literally means “return” – but to whom, or perhaps to what, are we returning? The Gemara (Kiddushin 39b) explains that Hashem created t’shuvah before creating the world itself. What is the meaning of this enigmatic statement, and what lessons and implications does it have for us as we proceed through the t’shuvah process?
The Practical Form of T’shuvah
The Rambam (Hilchos T’shuvah 1:1) discusses the three-step process of t’shuvah:
First, one must reflect on his or her past and acknowledge that a problem exists.
One must then transition into the present and strongly feel the pain of his or her mistake, regretting it wholeheartedly.
Finally, one must look towards the future and resolve to never commit this same mistake again.
This three-step guide is the practical process of t’shuvah. However, the essence of t’shuvah is the deep foundation for these three steps, and understanding this essence is the key to truly transforming ourselves through these three steps.
True T’shuvah: Returning to Your Higher Self
Genuine t’shuvah is not just about self-transformation; it’s about self-expression, returning to your true and higher self. As the Gemara (Nidah 30b) states, while we were in the womb, we were in a perfect and transcendent state of being, and a mal’ach (angel) teaches us kol haTorah kulah (all of Torah). As the Vilna Gaon explains, this refers to the deepest realms of Torah, a transcendent Torah that lies far beyond this world, beyond the confines of space and time. This Torah is the very root of reality, and you were granted complete understanding of its every detail. Not only were you shown this level of Torah, but you also learned your specific share of Torah – you were shown your unique purpose in the world, and how your unique role fits into the larger scheme of the human story as a whole. You were given a taste of your own perfection, of what you could, should, and hopefully will become. And from this transcendent realm, you were birthed into the physical world with the mission to actualize everything you were shown in the womb, while in your perfect, primordial state.
In essence, your job in this world is not to create yourself, but rather to recreate yourself: to re-attain your original state of perfection, as you were shown by the mal’ach. This time, however, it must be done through free will, by choosing to become great. Only by overcoming challenge and difficulty, only by asserting your willpower, can you fulfill your true potential. In essence, our entire life is a story of t’shuvah – returning to our original, higher, and true self.
The shofar is a wake-up blast, meant to shake us from our stupor and return us to our true self. When we hear the shofar’s piercing cry, we yearn to return to our source, to our higher selves. The word “shofar” shares a root with “l’shapeir,” to perfect and beautify. Strikingly, it also shares a root with “mei shafir” – the amniotic fluid that surrounds the fetus while in the womb. When we blow the shofar, we are reminded to improve and perfect ourselves, to return to our fetal state of perfection that we once knew – to return to our true selves.
The Three Stages of T’shuvah
There are three stages of genuine t’shuvah:
The first is individual t’shuvah, whereby we return to our higher selves, our fetal selves, our true selves.
The second stage of t’shuvah goes beyond the limited self, turning the focus from individual to community.
The Rambam, in discussing the laws of t’shuvah, states that someone who removes himself from the Jewish community has no share in Olam HaBa (the World to Come). In other words, even if this person keeps all of Torah and mitzvos and is an upstanding Jew, if he disconnects himself from the community, he loses his eternal existence. This requires explanation. After all, this person didn’t commit a heinous or evil act; he merely chose a life of isolation. Why should this warrant such extreme punishment?
The answer is profound. As human beings, we begin our lives as completely self-centered creatures, perceiving ourselves as isolated, separate, and disconnected from everyone else. As we progress through life, we learn to break down those walls and psychological barriers, recognizing that we are part of a bigger self, a collective self, a higher consciousness. At root, all of klal Yisrael is one, an interconnected self. Each of our individual neshamos is part of a bigger whole, like individual cells that make up a single human body. A central aspect of the experience of Olam HaBa is experiencing yourself as part of klal Yisrael, as part of your true, collective reality. If, however, one disconnects himself from klal Yisrael, he has uprooted himself from reality itself, and simply cannot exist. Just as, if you unplug a light bulb from its electric circuit, the light extinguishes, if a soul is disconnected from its root, it ceases to exist. This is not a punishment, merely a consequence.
This is the second stage of t’shuvah, returning to our collective self, to the single soul of klal Yisrael.
The Third Stage of T’shuvah
The third stage of t’shuvah is returning to our absolute root and source, to the Source of all sources, to Hashem Himself. The Nefesh HaChaim refers to Hashem as the “Neshamah shel neshamos” – the Soul of all souls. Hashem is the root of existence, the absolute root of all our souls. Our entire journey through life is about sourcing our existence back to Hashem – this is the ultimate t’shuvah.
We can now explain the Gemara that states that t’shuvah preceded creation. This is not merely a chronological phenomenon, this is a fundamental principle: T’shuvah is the root of this world; all of existence is created with the purpose of returning to its source, to fully reflect its absolute root, Hashem Himself.
The Three Themes of the Rosh HaShanah T’filah
The three themes of the Rosh HaShanah davening are Shofaros, Zichronos, and Malchuyos. Shofaros relates to the blowing of the shofar, Zichronos relates to remembering seminal events from Jewish history and Hashem’s covenant with the Jewish People, and Malchuyos is the process by which we crown Hashem King.
The shofar represents one’s individual spiritual yearning. It is a haunting, wordless cry that returns us to our higher self, our fetal self. Zichronos refers to the concept of memory, building upon this same theme. Memory represents tracing something from the present back into the past. It is an exercise in sourcing something back to its root. On Rosh HaShanah, as we discuss the Akeidah and other seminal moments in Jewish history, we connect back to our collective self, the root soul of all of klal Yisrael. Malchuyos is where we crown Hashem as our Melech, our King. We declare Hashem to be the source of everything, our ultimate root.
While all three of these themes are connected to all three forms of t’shuvah, Shofaros most deeply reflects our individual t’shuvah, Zichronos most deeply reflects our collective t’shuvah back to our collective self, and Malchuyos most deeply reflects our ultimate t’shuvah, sourcing ourselves back to Hashem Himself. May we be inspired to fully actualize all three forms of t’shuvah this Rosh HaShanah, and seal ourselves in the book of life, the book of true existence.
Shmuel Reichman is an inspirational speaker, writer, and coach who has lectured internationally at shuls, conferences, and Jewish communities on topics of Jewish Thought and Jewish Medical Ethics. He is the founder and CEO of Self-Mastery Academy (ShmuelReichman.com), the transformative online course that is revolutionizing how we engage in self-development. You can find more inspirational lectures, videos, and articles from Shmuel on his website: www.ShmuelReichman.com.